So my baby is 4 months old. And I’m ready for baby number 2. I know call me crazy (I’ve already had so much hate thrown my way so literally whatever your thinking right now someone has already told me). BUT hear me out. There is 4 years between my brother and I. Then my youngest brother there is 10 years. Growing up we all had different friends and we’re in different times in our life. Even now none of us can relate to each other. I don’t want that for my children. I want them all to be best friends. To love each other. To have each other’s back. To go to school together. To not dread that “the annoying little brother” is tagging along. Plus. Let’s say I wait until Zethus is 5 before we try again. That means I’ve spent 5 years in the newborn/toddler stage. Just to turn around and do it all over again. That means I’ve spent 10 years raising toddlers. NO THANK YOU. I’ll pass on that. Idk like I said before call me crazy. But I wouldn’t mind doing this stage all at once and only being tired for a few years. (Not that being tired ever stops when you have kids😂) but EVERYONE says to wait. However, funny thing is. Not one of these people pay my bills, but they ALWAYS have an opinion. And then wonder why I isolate myself. Because I DON’T get the support from my family. I’m always being told I’m doing something wrong. Or need to do it a different way. Makes me feel like I don’t have things under control. When in reality I run on a routine everyday. I keep my house clean. I run on a schedule. I actually feel like I have everything under control. But people insert their opinions and constantly undermine me. This was the reason I wanted to move away. So I could live my life, my way. But now for other reasons that my boyfriend is going through we are moving back home. And I’m TERRIFIED that my family and just people in general will constantly insert their opinions even more. And that will drive me more crazy than having two toddlers running around. I can deal with the babies and toddlers. It’s the grown adults who I can’t deal with. I didn’t understand how much MOM SHAMING happens. Even if it’s from your own family. I want 3-4 kids. And Moses knows this. He’s on board with everything. I think at this point I don’t care what other people think. Especially because they DON’T pay my bills. so if you don’t pay my bills. Don’t insert your opinion. Okay rant over. meanwhile here is a cute picture of Zethus.